What is wrong with me?

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What is wrong with me?


So this is my first time ever trying this i am not a writer even tho i love writing I'm just not the correct grammer person i just like to write and write and no need of any of that. Im a 26 year old hispanic female born in El Salvador but was raised in Texas my whole life by my grandparents. I was abandon my my biological parents reasons why i never knew and will never know why. I just wanna give a brief intro to who i am as my stories will expand as time does the same. Is so hard to live in a life where u feel the love from all the other people you have meet and touched their life, but then you ask yourself how is that possible if the one so call family dont show the same? Am i doing something wrong with them? Or are they the one that dont love me? but then there goes that first question i asked my self everyday are all these people i know just pretend to like me and is all a lie? I dont know and will never understand all i know is i pain and cry but never understanding why.


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Dear Leyda, I'm so sorry you were dealt a very difficult card. I know hearing sorry sometimes has no significance, but you experienced loss and unfairness at a very young age. So I believe that apologies are in order. Nothing is going to completely fill that hole that you feel (believe me, I know), but there are definitely people out there whose love dampens the pain. Your grandparents took on a task that your parents couldn't take. The friends you made in life gave you the love your parents couldn't give. Don't think that because your parents left, that everyone else will too. Fortunately, there are people out there who choose to stay with you and not leave. Those are people worth your time and your emotions. You just need to remember that they're there and accept their love for you because it is only as real as YOU make it. Don't let doubt cast away their affections. Please continue to share your story and I hope that with every entry you become stronger.

Jun 19, 2014 - 2:18 PM by Esther K

Leyda, thank you so much for sharing your story. Please know that you are certainly not alone and there are so many people who love you. I can understand how you feel, though. My parents adopted two of my siblings as infants. Growing up, my siblings often felt the same way you are feeling now. They did not think that they were loved and felt abandoned by their biological mothers. It can be so frustrating to not have an answer to "why". They are in their late 20s and early 30s and still sometimes struggle with feeling a sense of identity because of this. You may not feel like you are, but you are a very important part of many people's lives. I hope you keep up the writing!

Jun 18, 2014 - 4:37 PM by Courtland L

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