Life is Officially a Bitch.

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Life is Officially a Bitch.

Life is a officially a bitch. Tonight I had to tell the worst news possible to the people I love most in the world. It was something I wasn’t going to have to admit to myself, let alone say to anyone for a very, very long time.

The votes are in and cancer has taken the lead in this race. I learned late this afternoon that the cancer has spread to the lining of my brain. I could tell my doctor wanted to tell me this news about as much as you would want to be shredded to death with a dull cheese grater. The MRI and PET scan show that there are now spots of cancer present in my brain. She said unfortunately once the cancer gets to this point, it gets very aggressive. The prognosis isn’t good, but at the same time I have to say I do not know what the prognosis is yet.

What I do I know:

They are recommending I do 10 rounds of radiation on my brain.

I don’t understand this part at all but I will get more detail Tuesday, but I would go to a specialist to have something implanted that allows some magical something to be administered to my nervous system. (makes perfect sense right?)

I will meet with my doctors Tuesday to discuss the next chemotherapy and where I want to be.

Now I have to admit that once I heard the words “brain” and “cancer” in the same sentence, all I could hear floating around in my brain was ‘I am gonna die”. I am going to die way sooner than I was planning on”.

So I am here to share with you guys absolutely nothing more than that because that is all I know. I don’t know what this means as far as where we are going to live, how we are going to live, etc. All I know is that I need to live, and want to live for as long as possible. I have to hope everything else will fall into place. I’m scared, I am upset and frustrated. I hate that this is happening. All that does not stop the fact it is happening. I am not one to take this crap lying down so on we go. I might be asking for a lot of kicks in the ass in the near future, reminding me I can beat this… at least for a while longer.

I just wanted everyone to hear the news from me, and to make sure it was the same news being shared. You will know more when we know more. I promise I won’t go into hiding. I know it’s hard to know what to say to news like this. Hell, there is really nothing to say. Just let us know you’re there. That’s all we need.


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STAY IN THE FIGHT! Never give up, never quit. Just keep going....

Jan 25, 2016 - 5:21 PM by Terry O

Thank you. I will never give up fighting. I got the news yesterday that I can expect to live another 3-7 months. That is average. I told my doctors that I am a lot of things, but average is not one of them. I plan to shoot past that 7 month mark for sure.

Jan 27, 2016 - 4:46 AM by Lori R

Amen Terry - Lori is a Fighter and will never give up!

Jan 25, 2016 - 5:40 PM by David D

Lori - Courtland, myself and the rest of our team are so heartbroken to hear this news. It goes without saying that we are all here for you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers along with your family.

Jan 21, 2016 - 8:23 AM by David D

Thanks Courtland and all the Healtheo360 team. You all have been a major source of strength and support for both Dennis and I.

Jan 27, 2016 - 4:47 AM by Lori R

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